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SeptemberI don't know why,
I still break down and cry,
At times I find myself,
Wanting to shout out for help,
I want to tell you that I love you, but I don't know,
I just don't know if what we had before is possible,

I hope that you'll always remember me,
And the good times that came to be,
Forget the arguments and the fights,
Step out of the shadows and walk into the light,

Maybe one day we'll talk again,
Forgive each other for our sins,
Until then I'll hold it all in,
Because sometimes it takes two to begin,

Honestly, I just want this month to be over,
As days go by I can feel my heart grow colder,
This would've been two years togeth

Internal ConflictTheres a war going on inside of me
And I cant continue this fight
There's nothing left of me to bleed
and I can't find the light

How do I tell her how I still feel
when its been over for so long
How do I even know what is real?
and how my love can be so wrong

Theres a battle raging inside my heart
and its taking away my sight
How do I stop it from tearing me apart
when I know nothing is right

I'm scared to even talk to her
because shes happy without me
I want the pain to be over
I just want to be free

There a war going on inside of me
and I can't continue this fight
There's nothing left of me to bleed
and I cant find the li

Is It Worth It?We share an amazing love.
A love that is more amazing than anything else.
We smile and laugh and love
Always.
We are so happy together.

But is it worth it?

They tore us apart and we are
Broken.
Shattered.
We are so upset
Unhappy
With this life of torment in being apart.
I scream at night without you there.
Scream.
It has progressed from bad dreams;
Progressed from nightmares.
I scream.

Is it worth it?

We cry at the slightest of things.
I sob for hours.
And hours.
And hours.
And hours.
I do nothing but cry
Into the night.

Is it worth it?

We share an amazing love.
A love that is more amazing than anything else.
We sm

ContradictionsThese things seem to rule my life,
Some people hate me and cause me strife,
Others think me a hero, ready to sacrifice myself.
Many think me noble, but you can decide that yourself.

Contradictions, they rule my life, "Why did she break up with you?"
A complete and utter list of contradictions, all of which I tell you,
"Does she love you?" I answer she says so, and I love her too.
A contradiction follows, "But then why did she break-up with you?"

That's the mystery, the greatest contradiction of all, to all of you,
But no, I leave out one thing, the thing that kills me inside too.
"I'm just... I'm not happy." What she said, word for word,
And I cry now, because what she said did not go unheard.

You'll never fix meWhat is wrong, what's my problem?
tell me what to do, I need some help from you.

Just let go, it's my problem.
Nothing you can say, will make me feel ok.

Get out leave me alone,
not searching for another home and

I, don't think it's gonna work.
The help you think you offer me.
Don't think it's gonna work
Why can't you see what I see.
Don't think it's gonna work,
you'll never fix me.

Please give up, just stop trying.
It's just who I am, you don't understand.

Leave me here, stop the lying.
Like this I am fine, have been all this time.

Get out leave me alone,
not searching for another home and

I, don't think it's gonna work.
T

Break freeLost, inside
another thing to hide
Lie, again
the one thing I can

Dark, light
oh what will win the fight
Just, me
will I ever be free

I'm really not ok,
no matter what I say.

Deeper deeper, falling down
Deeper deeper hart's run out.
I'm lost inside of me,
Can no longer see,
How can I break free?

don't, feel
the mirror shows what's real
help, me
but I don't want you to see

Leave, go
find out what I don't know
time, space
just want to leave this place

I'll come back but when,
when I feel good again.

Deeper deeper, falling down
Deeper deeper hart's run out.
I'm lost inside of me,
Can no longer see,
How can I break f

ListenWill you listen?
To me scream?
Scream so loud,
Your ears'll bleed?
Will you listen?
To my screams?
Screams so loud.
Your ears'll ring?
Will you listen?

Please?

MistakesNot a single inspiration,
Only tears and heat.
Marking still deflation,
Walking a silent street.
In rain and desperation,
Life so incomplete.
Indecent deadly quotation,
Trickery to delete.
Throwing the accusation,
In survival we compete.
Drifting animation,
A relationship deplete.
Instant cancellation,
Monsters for retreat.
Sudden culmination,
As broken records repeat.

Words
Jumbled words and confusing thoughts.
She just needs to clear her head.
So much planning. To many plots.

Her written word seems to come out louder.
It makes her feel more confident in things she knows.
But will these words keep her strong? Make her prouder?

Full of worry. Full of despair.
Nothing makes senses anymore.
Jeez. She needs some fresh air.

Okay. Life makes no sense. The world gets it.
But why is it so difficult?  Why so confusing!?
Sometimes, she just wants to quit.

Words! Can they help her in this state of desperation?
Words!  Do not fail her now.
Or will these words judge her to

An Uncertain OutcomeI never thought I could fall in love with you
There were alot of things that I thought would never happen too
Between you and I, some I still wonder at why
The more I try to reason, the more i'm lost
Therefore I shall not try to reason at all
Just let things come as they might, whether wrong or right
I'll let my heart judge these affairs from now on
I think that how it ought to be anyhow
So the next time we meet there will be nothing to press
Doing so would result in a large mess
One that i'm not prepared to put to any kind of test.

That Sickly FeelingThe mind refuses to forget
The heart orders "Feel"
The explosive emotions begin
I hear your voice
I remember
Remorse and questions devour me again
My chest tightens
A physical ache seizes me
Then
Slowly
Soundlessly
Tiresomely
Insignificantly
They fall
Tears of "Whys"
Tears of "Maybes"
Tears of "Buts"
Tears of "Hows"
Beats' slow
Breaths shorten
Memory travels
Time stops
Pain is initiated
Thoughts of denial envelop
Dreams are dreamt
Reality is fated
Things are no longer the same
Everything
Loses its previous course
The tears stop
The impassive shell emerges
Its time to sleep
The chest pai

Keep FightingKeep fighting,
And never let go.
Just hold on a little longer.

The time has come to prove what your worth.
It's time to show them how much you care.

Keep fighting,
For what you want,
You might just get it.

Keep fighting,
Even when you feel like giving up.

Never let go, never give up,
Just keep fighting.

It's time to take control,
It's time to make it right.

Come on we can do it,
Let's do this together,
And fight for what is right.

Keep fighting,
And never let go.
Just hold on a little longer.

Is It Really Worth It?Is it really worth it to bully some one?
To put someone down just so you can feel satisfaction,
To make someone feel so little of themselves.

Come on people,
You don't have to do that,
You don't have to beat someone up so you feel better.

Do you know that the words you say hurt?
Do you know that some people can't handle it?

You don't know that person,
You don't know what they are like.
It shouldn't matter what someone looks like on the outside,
Their personality is what matters the most
Because that shows who they are.

It is not worth it to bully.
It's not worth it at all.

If you don't like someone then that is your business,

Insecurethier stares follow me,
as i try and walk
away, from them
from their cruel words
from their unsaid

torments, making me
hide further away,
from all of them
from the world
from their fake smiles

but i know all
they see is
a little girl who
hides and cries out
her worst fears...

insecure of how
they see her,
how they think of her,
insecure of the world
that has been nothing

but cruel to her,
making her shed tears
that go unseen,
making her wish
it would stop...

making her insecure
and afraid to be
herself of speaking out,
hiding behind a shell
that others pick at

only strengthened by
her tears as she huddles
by

I'm Tired of Being FakeI'm tired of all this,
Pretending to be happy,
Hiding that zombie I know is me.
Please,
Can someone tell me when I can be me?
That cold and uncaring human you all despise…

Don't look at me as though I'm dead,
It's more like I'm numb.
Only few emotions rule my being,
However my loyalty is king.
Gain it and you'll have me.
I can also feel shallow waves of love,
Small butterflies flutter in my heart.
Should someone gain this love;
They should be a god amongst mortals.

I'm tired of all this though.
The fake smiles and mechanical laughter;
I desp

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by ~AlilliceMFC, Sep 20, 2012, 11:59:54 AM
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Is it perfect enough to be wrong?
Will all your promises be broken,
every word that you have spoken?
I knew it all along.

Is the strangest way the best?
Could I've known the right words
to stop all that hurts?
What will happen to the rest?

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